The beginning of knowledge

It is the Love of the Lord which is the beginning of knowledge. The fear of the Lord is the reverrence which so few attain. Becoming an adult I have struggled with this attraction that living in fear of God has driven me to fear others in my life. This fear is not becoming of who God wants me to be. What I have gained by self ambition in fear of letting others down has given me greif and pain, but what God has given me out of this mutual love has and will be sustained. Moth and rust, laws and deceptions have destroyed everything I have gained in this world, but beyond this world God has provided what my heart has glimpsed as eternal. Even the provisions He has made for me in this place have superceded any and all beautiful(shiny) things this world could ever offer. I am convinced now more than ever that the base for my wissdom and my sanctification comes not from fearing God while I wear fig leaves in the garden, but from slipping into the fur of His sacrifice. He made atonement for my sin...all I did was complicate things by fearing Him. When finally I step out and confess and present my weak apology, He makes the sacrifice. Good and Evil set out of my head and enter my heart, Love and forgiveness envelop themm there...Where He reigns in Love!!