EGR

I see Him with the palm of His hand upon His forehead, His fingers combing back through His hair till His thumb and wrist graze His ear. I know that feeling of grief and patient peace-seeking is caused by my inability to understand. I realize as I see Him there in perplexity that I am His EGR person. How many times have I sought out to extend the Extra Grace Required to those who do not seem capable of functioning with the others the way that is set as the occasions norm? How many times have I struggled to exhibit patience everything seems helpless and torn? But He has done this for me countless times. He quantifies the balances of greater love and infinite forgiveness. He offer infinite equality over our failings and flaws.

Dynamics

God is here. This all important message is where we must center our devotion. It is not that God does not want us knowledgeable or thoughtful of the future, it is simply that he wants us to not meditate on the things to come. there is a catch to this we are to want the things He will give us. His Kingdom come! yet He is here. He is now as much or maybe more than He is in the future. Not that there will or has ever been less than He is now, just that we are tied only to the now. The question remains If you will not show the world Him in the moment then it is finished. There is no future for that moment or that opportunity and it will not be given to another; it is God's moment to live through you, and it is wasted on your fear of what the world may do or think. I speak boldly with threats against me. I have been driven slowly to anger, though some have said malicious things about how I was suddenly angry it has taken its time in coming. I have weighed out my reasoning and have readied myself for this battle. I knew not that it would be manifest only that in the moment I was told to prepare. The first blow took me by surprise as I was in a lull of training, but with composure I now stand ready for the next opposition, ready to stand, ready to defend, Here, Now, I am!

Again

To love again I would give everything. To hold in my arms the friend that turned away. To love again I would give everything. To speak and listen, to communicate. Everything I have done has been twisted back on me and everything I am has been made to ruin. A man in hidden ways has stolen my family and turned a church against me. These men who slither around with smooth tongues that say they will not get involved or want not get involved strike cruelly with venom where and when you least expect, but my heels are tough from these attacks and their heads are weak. time to crush some skulls!

Addiction

We all have addictions, whether these are socially acceptable is the only way we rate such addictions. there are addictions to food, to alcohol, to sex, to drugs, and to other people, but the most misunderstood addiction I find plaguing our society is this addiction to the contemporary. The addiction to have, to experience, to be a part of whatever is new and popular. Few support the traditional any longer. The world is in need of a new thing. The addiction to the contemporary drives our world to an end. the examples are too numerous to explain, but a few would be the fall of the major department stores and the minor ones in lieu of pop shops or the ever expanding Wal-Mart domination of the needs with wants store or all-in-one store. the church also sees the traditional/sacred sacrificed for the contemporary/worldly...it is true that the church needs to be relevant, but at what cost. do we stand by the door to invite people in, or have we drifted out so far that we can no longer find our own way back? what a dilemma now faces the family as parents do not stay consistent with their beliefs, but blow about in the wind with the latest thing to come down the line. What is in the right hand looks better, so we will go with that for today. Where is the integrity we once set out to uphold? perhaps america needs change, but if you spend all that time changing, do you know who you are by the time you are finished, or is who you are what you most want to change? doesn't matter the contemporary wave will be back shortly and you will feel the need to change once more.

I wish to return to and to remain who and what I am supposed to be. No fusion with the contemporary. No t-shirt and blue jean life...this world needs a constant, let it be me. I wish the world would return to having value, but that would become a contemporary movement of its own that would fade as quickly as skinny jeans, Hannah Montana, flares, and the American family. Just another addiction to distract from the purpose and meaning of life--to honor God.