God's Judgment

I received word yesterday of an enemy of God's design being held in jail for harboring possessions. I still have a hard heart for the situations which tore my family apart, but for God's judgment to begin being distributed after so many prayers and sacrifices, I rejoice. I see now God's hand at work and I see His will to be so much more accurate than mine. I do not know what the next step is in all this, but now that my faith is gaining sight I will shout to all who told me to forsake God and fully walk away from the fire in my heart, "My God is God and I will praise Him forevermore!" Encouraged that nothing can defeat Him and so glad that within His care and protection my enemies will fall. I have no battle that is not His. While at times He may use me in the fight, my best move when it is too personal is to step aside and let God win the fight. God is awesome in His timing, perfect in every aspect of His will, and nearly comical in His ways. I have waited and struggled with His dealings in these matters, watching as hearts were broken, mislead, deceived and diluted. Watching children suffer the sins of their parents till there was very little left. Having anger and vengeance trying to settle in my heart as I restrained myself from taking the fight into my own hands. Now God gives me a glimpse of His workings, so that I may know He is answering my prayers His way, not that He gives me full sight, but just enough to begin lifting my struggle. He lets me peak into the workshop not to see fully what is being made, but to catch the edge of beauty some fine detail that reassures me of a grand and extravagant masterpiece which by His design someday I will see. He has gone to prepare a place for me with His nail scarred hands and thorn pressed brow, His sweat and His tears in every intricate detail.

Belief

the feeling that this is possible or that something could be done is a onset to faith and doubt. There never goes a time without someone believing in the impossible, without someone questioning the norms of what others consider reality. What is this persistence with dreaming and forging a newer conceptualization of the things to come. this dream and desire for greatness is catapulting our doubt and stifling our faith. This concentration on the grandeur demotes the real miracle and stifles the truth of faith. All things are possible to those who believe...ALL THINGS!

Beginning to end it all

I have decided to follow my heart! I know that there will be many who become disgusted by what I am about to write or am presently writing, but an end must come to the hidden things that are creating the blasphemy of the righteous. I have seen too much, known too many things which happen behind the closed doors. My duty to God must now subdue the want that I have had to help man. Perhaps the greatest help I can offer is to expose the lie, cleaning up the deception so that the truth may prevail.

The beginning of knowledge

It is the Love of the Lord which is the beginning of knowledge. The fear of the Lord is the reverrence which so few attain. Becoming an adult I have struggled with this attraction that living in fear of God has driven me to fear others in my life. This fear is not becoming of who God wants me to be. What I have gained by self ambition in fear of letting others down has given me greif and pain, but what God has given me out of this mutual love has and will be sustained. Moth and rust, laws and deceptions have destroyed everything I have gained in this world, but beyond this world God has provided what my heart has glimpsed as eternal. Even the provisions He has made for me in this place have superceded any and all beautiful(shiny) things this world could ever offer. I am convinced now more than ever that the base for my wissdom and my sanctification comes not from fearing God while I wear fig leaves in the garden, but from slipping into the fur of His sacrifice. He made atonement for my sin...all I did was complicate things by fearing Him. When finally I step out and confess and present my weak apology, He makes the sacrifice. Good and Evil set out of my head and enter my heart, Love and forgiveness envelop themm there...Where He reigns in Love!!

Super Hero realities

The Avengers movie has been released and I have had the priveledge of viewing it several times since its release. What strikes me is the heroes' traits in relationship to the Christian experience. Each hereo has strengths and weaknesses which correlate directly to human problems when dealing with the Holy Spirit. The first avenger, Captain America, while injected with a power beyond his own comprehension has been subjected to a life beyond the cold rejection of the world he once knew. His discovery of the power not only in himself, but in his alliance with Shield gives him a reprieve from his solitude, yet humbles him to lead those who also have struggled with what they believe. The Iron Man character having such a hard and brutal shell wrapped around an egotistical narcisist is really the only one who can strip away from the Super hero at will and yet chooses to stand and be counted. The genius and the lunatic wrapped up in the eternal search for self worth, held captive by true love. Humbled by the chance that true friends not only stand together, but at times knock you down. The harsh lesson of surrendering to something greater than self is learned and the arrogance that was once reserved for self flattery finds its way into praise of others. Thor, this visitor of another culture was the top of his game, yet the dark secrets of his culture are the downfall of anothers. His weakness is love. He cares not only about the oppressed but about the oppressor too. he would that all men work together for good, but in the end his realisation is that all will succumb to reason before it is too late. The Hulk. This seemingly uncontrollable force which exerts itself in a constant battle whether seen or unseen is perhaps the most crucial member of the team. His power is feared and reverred; needed and very much dreaded. his involvement is to find and destroy the strongholds of the enemy even if it means destruction of whatever else stands in the way. Nick Fury, the agent from their organization who monopolizes on their strengths and weaknesses in order to balance out the relationship between humanity and the supeerheroes. He weighs the law and disects it in order to sway the battle for victory. Black Widow and Hawk, these two have in the past worked to destroy what is good by soldiering for their causes. Their regrets are in choosing the patriotic over the right on several occasions. Both have been given another chance and both believe they must earn the chance they have been given. So there we have our basis for a church. An elder to govern wisely, A preacher to proclaim emphatically what our capabilites are, an evangelist to stress conversion at every cost, a prayer warrior to be bound and released in season, a parlimentarian to outline the bounds and stretch them when necessary, and skilled workmen to assist wherever and whenever needed.

Worthiness

 thou hast appointed repentance unto me that am a sinner: for I have sinned above the number of the sands of the sea. My transgressions, O Lord, are multiplied: my transgressions are multiplied, and I am not worthy to behold and see the height of heaven for the multitude of mine iniquities.--from the Prayer of Manessah

I am not worthy when I consider all things, nor can I gain worthiness.  Too often works theology sways believers into being or trying to be something they are not.  God designed each one of His people to have different traits, talents and characteristics that would teach each one tolerance, acceptance and love. None are worthy, none can achieve worthiness,  but as a gift God does not look on us but on His son, His ideal creation is our stand-in.  Serving not our sins, for that He has already paid the price, but He stands in radiant holiness beyond compare before God on our behalf.  God sees the radiant holiness of Jesus, not the suffering sinfulness of man deserving death.  God sees His creation prepared for eternity, washed clean of the concept of sin, full of glory, abounding in grace.  This is how God sees you.

presence of God

believing God is omnipresent does not satisfy my ned for His presence. Long have the stories of Christ's return enthralled my curiosities, but few have been the insertions of the spirit's indwelling now. God is present now! too long has the Holy Spirit been tied to some revivalist of pentecostal religious experience; taking up snakes, tongues, healings, prophecies, etc.; the spirit is here, now! It is the power of God working the everyday aspect of life, breathing in and out in the presence of the sinful nature of man, the overwhelming phrase that bring confusion is, "sin cannot exist in the presence of God." Unfortunately, this statement is post knowledge propaganda. God planted two trees in a garden one time, two conceptual trees, one the concept of life thrived in its fruit the other tree the concept of good and evil thrived. these concepts are highly debated in the world, what is life, what constitutes existence, what is right, what is wrong? there are no concretes in the evaluation of fruits, yet the search for concretes in the evaluation remains the pinnacle of religions. Where then is God? We say he created all things, yet we limit His involvement when it comes to the things we have deemed unholy. "Do not call unclean what I have called cleaned!" "it is good!" The latter statement of Gods creation remark trumps out the concept of evil, that is unless God was not truthful in His evaluation of His work. How were we to quantify good without an evaluation of good? we needed the knowledge, we wanted the knowledge as much as we wanted to know the antithesis of life. God is here. He has not left us, nor does He cause bad things to happen to us. Viewing things as bad, evil, unrighteous; being critical of the critical illness we find in the antithesis of life is denying the presence and truthfulness of God. "It is good!" all things happen for a purpose, seeking God, evaluating God, getting to know God. He is here! His power (spirit) is with us. "It is Good!" the turning of the tides, the shifting of the earth's crust, changing of the climate. "It is Good!" because, "It is God!" He is here.